Would you?

Will you still love me even if I’m not perfect? Will you still love me even if I’m not the kind of person you wished I were? Will you still look into my eyes with warmth even if you saw my shadows? Will you still hold my hand even if you knew there will be times I’d let you down?

For though I yearn to take care of you as I should, though I desire to love you with a love that never falters and fades, my knees tremble this very moment that you hold me in your arms.
Shall I kiss you? Shall I hold your hand and bask in the light of your spirit knowing that I have my darkness, knowing there will be times that the light of my love will sometimes be overshadowed by the darkness that is in me?

Sometimes I’d be silent and I might bore you. I may not laugh at your jokes, and you may not understand the spell that’s enshrouding me. Sometimes I’d get troubled and I’d fail to put into words what the hell it is that troubles me. I wouldn’t be good company then, and I couldn’t make you smile.

Sometimes I’d get moody and I might not enjoy the things you’d like us to do together. Sometimes I’d lose my temper and I’d no longer act like the fine person who stands before you today. Sometimes I’d get jealous and I might say things I don’t really mean. Sometimes I’d talk too much that I might drive you away.

Sometimed I’d get touchy and I’d get easily hurt. And no matter how mature I try to be, at times I’d act in childish ways. I’d demand things I shouldn’t, I’d say thing I shouldn’t say. And no matter how much I desire to protect you and make you happy, sometimes I’d be the one who’d cause you the most pain.

If you will love me I cannot promise you that I will not hurt you. I cannot promise you that I will not make you cry and that I’ll never break your heart. But if you will love me, I will bare my whole self naked before you, and I will reveal to you my soul. If you will love me, you can be certain that it is I that you will love, not a mask that fools you and gives you only what your eyes desire to see. If you will love me, you can be certain that you will love the depths of me, all of me that is in me, and I in turn will love you with all of me, with all my soul, with all my mind, with all my spirit, with all my flaws and beauty, and with all my very heart.

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Without words...

I should have done that

I should have ignored it
like something i couldn’t see
I shouldn’t have looked at you at all
I should have run away
I should have acted like i didn’t hear it
like something I couldn’t hear.
I shouldn’t have listened to love at all

Without a word , you let me know love
Without a word, you give me love
You made me even hold your breath but you ran away like this
Without a word, love leaves me
Without a word, love tossed me away
what should I say next?
my closed lips were surprised on their own
coming without any words

Why does it hurts so much?
Why does it hurts continuously?
Except for the fact that i can’t see you anymore
And that you are not here anymore
Otherwise, it’s the same as before.

Without a word , you let me know love
Without a word, you give me love
You made me even hold of your breath but you ran away like this
Without a word, love leaves me
Without a word, love tossed me away
What should I say next?
My closed lips were surprised on their own
Without a word, tears fall
Without a word, my heart breaks down.

Without a word, i waited for love
Without a word, love hurts me
I zoned out. I become a fool because I cry looking at the sky
Without a word, farewell finds me
Without a word, the end comes to me
I think my heart was surprised to send you away without any preperations
It came without a word.

Without a word, it comes and leaves
Like the fever before
Maybe all I need to do is endure the hurt for a while
Because in the end, only scars are left..

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A time for Everything

Everything that happens in this world happens at the time God chooses.

He sets the time for birth and the time for death, the time for planting and the time for pulling up, the time for killing and the time for healing, the time for tearing down and the time for building. Time for sorrow and the time for, the time for mourning. He sets time for finding and the time for losing, the time for saving and the time for throwing away. Time for tearing and the time for mending, time for silence and the time for talk. He sets time for LOVE and the time for HATE the time for war and the time for peace. Everything takes place at the right time.

Likewise…
Everything takes time at the right place.

He has set the right time for everything. He has given us a desire to know the future, but never gives us the satisfaction of fully understanding what He does. All we can do is to be happy and do the best we can while we are still alive. Everything that God does will last forever. We can’t add anything to it or take anything away from it. And one thing God does is to make us stand in awe of him. Whatever happens or can happen has already happened before. In addition, I have also noticed that in this world you find wickedness where justice and right ought to be. I once told myself,

“every thing and every action, will happen at its own set time.”

God is testing us, to show us that we are no better than animals. After all, the same FATE of HUMAN BEINGS and ANIMALS alike. One dies just like the other. They are the same kind of creature. A  HUMAN BEING is no better off than an animal, for LIFE has no meaning for either. I realized then that the best thing we can do is to relish what we worked for. There is no way for us to know what will happen after we die. I have also learned why people work so hard to succeed: it is because they envy the things their neighbors have. But it is useless. It is like CHASING THE WIND. They say that we would be fools to fold our hands and let ourselves STARVE to DEATH. Maybe so, but it is better to have little, with peace of mind, than be so busy all the time with both hands, trying to catch the wind.

“Now is the time for me to rise to my feet, wipe this spit in my face… Wipe this tears in my eyes.”

Who's Milady?

A 21-year old woman, lives in Davao, Philippines. Acquired a Bachelor of Science degree in Information Technology (2012) and a short course in Basic Office (2005).

Sometimes I do designing and coding aside, I always have this passion for blogging even though I’m not as articulate as those naturally inborn creative writers. I usually blog about my personal life experiences or random photos that I took out of boredom. I fancy SpongeBob and has always been inlove with pink (often, pastel colors).

Some facts:

• I am so miss TEES-and-PANTS. You'll RARELY see me dressing up like a LADY.
• I COULD BE THE COMPLETE OPPOSITE OF YOUR FIRST (or maybe last) IMPRESSION. DON'T BE FOOLED BY MY SUCH DECEIVING FACADE.
• There's MORE to me than a mere physical attributes you see.
• I simply wanna see how clouds and ocean meet.

Happy endings only exist in movies.

Believes in Never Ending Heartaches.

Has drastic mood changes.

Blue is my ultimate fave, so call me Milady.